Wednesday, November 28, 2007

I'm a shiny gold star

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Thursday, November 22, 2007

Open Letter to

Dear PokerStars,

You and I have been close for some time now. I've played at your site for several years and still count it as one of the best in the industry. I've gone to other sites and always seem to find my way back to you. I was even counted among "valued customers" when you chose to start allowing certain people to deposit via eCheck.

I'm a winning multi-tabler, playing as many as 16 tables at once, which I know is your favorite type of player. The kind that generates rake and plays a big volume. I may not play the highest stakes, but I'm working on that and that's beneficial for the both of us.

With all this in mind, I'm going to humbly ask you to turn off my doomswitch. I mean it's gone on long enough. How many hours will you make me suffer for your amusement?

I thought we were friends.

Friends don't give each other 100 tournament long stretches of negative variance. That's just not nice.

Thanks in advance for considering,


Monday, November 12, 2007

My Biggest Poker Problem

Well maybe not my biggest biggest problem may be my natural instinct to want to look people up on the river. I suppose this falls under the category of my biggest psychological problem with reference to poker.

The Stop-Win.

I know everyone has heard of a stop-loss. For those who don't, it's where you stop playing after dropping a specific amount of money. This is done to prevent tilt and to try and stop playing when you're more likely to be playing poorly and chasing your losses. I never really put a stop-loss on myself unless I'm taking a shot at a higher buy-in game than normal because I am almost always properly rolled for the tables that I'm playing.

My problem is exactly the opposite. If I sit down at the tables and win 3 buy-ins after a few hundred hands I'll often stop playing even though I feel like I'm playing great and I usually have planned to play more. I stop though. It's not really something I can explain, but this fear starts creeping into me that I'm going to lose it back because I'm inevitably winning way above expectation at that point. Something inside knows that my winrate will regress towards the mean at some point and that often times means losing some money. That starts to overwhelm my thoughts and I look at my new account balance, then I can't make myself play a hand for fear of losing the hand and losing I have to stop playing.

This has been something that has plagued me for as long as I can remember. I've been able to play far longer when I'm losing than when I'm winning. I hate that I do this, but I can't seem to make myself stop. I don't have many big losing sessions because I don't really stop until I can get back to even. Sometimes I play an extra 2 or 3 hours than I planned to because of it though. I feel like I'm getting better at stopping myself when I'm playing poorly, but I can't make myself continue when I'm playing well and the results are showing it. I feel like this is a time when I can be making a ton of money and I'm missing out. I'm playing well and I'm definitely not on tilt because I'm winning...and yet I have to stop. It drives me insane.

Has anyone else had to deal with something like did you solve it?

Friday, November 2, 2007

Stressed out and October Graphs

School and work have been kicking my ass lately. I've actually missed several classes this week because I just needed a break. I cannot wait for this semester to end. This has also led to really varied amounts of time for me to play poker.

Even still, I managed to turn a pretty good month out of October. I went through sharkscope and they show me up a little less than $150 for the month and here is my cash game graph for the month (this includes all levels, limit and NL that I played during the month):