Sunday, January 6, 2008

The Journey

I hate the title of this. I unfortunately have to have a title before I can begin writing anything. It's something that basically crushed me in high school because all of my English teachers wanted good titles for our papers. That was something I was never good at, so I would struggle with the title for hours and never have any work done on my paper. The due date would arrive and I would have nothing to turn in because I was never able to get past the fact that I'm really bad at coming up with titles. As one might assume I did not get the best grades in high school, but it's getting better.

That's all really irrelevant, but I am unhappy with my title.

I have a friend who occasionally gets philosophical and talks about life being about the journey as opposed to the destination. So that's where I got my lame title.

Lately I've been thinking about that in poker. Am I playing for the journey (the actual time I spend playing) or for money I can make in the end (the destination). I think I really play for the destination 95% of the time. I have a goal for what I can acheive in the end. I want x amount of money or I want to reach a certain milestone or I need to win a tournament.

It's not that I just want to sit around and have fun playing a game of cards. I feel lazy when I play less than 6 tables most of the time. I still have fun playing the game. I don't just sit down start clicking and become miserable, but I don't know if I play in a healthy way. I want to get back to the feeling I got when I was learning poker, the joy and excitement that brought to me.

...but it sure will be hard to hit Supernova with that attitude.

1 comment:

$mokkee said...

instead of setting goals based on how much you want to win, try setting goals based on how much you should play (e.g. 2000 hands wk, 200 sngs, etc). adjust the numbers until you're comfortable.

poker does get a little tiresome at times. but, there are so many other things you can do to improve your game instead of playing.

GL at the tables!